AokiLapis01

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Death is Bliss by AokiLapis01, literature

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Death is Bliss

I once knew a girl who was so consumed by the thought of death that she never lived Every night she would tremble with the fear of never waking from her slumber She lived in constant fear of tomorrow She prayed every night, and every night she hated god a little more Every night she extend her arm reaching up to the heavens begging him to take her away But not once did he ever answer her prayers A handful of pills cured her of her fear She was consumed by the pure bliss of the death she so feared

Dad by AokiLapis01, literature

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Dad

I'd like to believe that the god of so many wonders would protect me That when a man raises his hand and strikes fear in me He would be consumed with fear of my lord I'd like to believe that a man can only call himself a man under a certain set of circumstances What kind of man is the one that you cannot love but only fear? What good is a person who can bring another human soul down to destruction? A man who lets me dangle and leaves me there to be swallowed by the dark A man who has no intention to stop but only to speed forward and tear down all in his path Women were not made for Men as water was not made to extinguish a fire A heart was

A Strangers Wisdom by AokiLapis01, literature

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A Strangers Wisdom

young man walked into a shop and asked the owner, "Hello sir can I buy a heart?" "Im sorry son but I can't sell you that" he replied He continued on "well sir by any chance could I buy a soul" The man paused and said "Im sorry son we do not sell that here" "Well maybe you don't have that but im sure you can sell me happiness" The store owners eyes widened as he replied "Im sorry, but I am merely a man, a shop owner working his way through life, if I had happiness here to sell I would have taken it for myself long ago. If we sold hearts mine wouldnt be failing on me, and if we sold souls I wouldn't be about to lose mine" Tears rolled down th

Alcohol by AokiLapis01, literature

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Alcohol

Go ahead and have another drink Always repeating the night before Hoping the alcohol will wash away this feeling It starts to seem like a cycle Always hurting the people you love But to me it seems like you don't love me unless you've hurt me Maybe you love the guilt because it gives you a reason to care Have another drink and sleepwalk through life securely Because you know I will never leave I will be there every time Every time you lash out Every time you cry Every single moment I'm there Isn't it sad The trip up is so beautiful But on the way down you hurt someone who devoted herself to you

A Perfect World by AokiLapis01, literature

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A Perfect World

Maybe one day the skies will be blue And the grass will be greener The birds will sing a song As the children run outside and play In a perfect world hearts are intact And every belly is filled Religion is always a choice And God is always forgiving But until then the skies will stay grey The grass will be dry The sky will be full of crows Our hearts ill always be broken And the children will always cry Someone will always starve And religion will always be given And god will never have mercy For none of our sins will ever be forgiven

The Shadow of My Heart by AokiLapis01, literature

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The Shadow of My Heart

We can live our lives with good intentions With the strength in our hearts to wish the most for someone else and the least for ourselves Sometimes we forget to care about ourselves in the process of taking care of someone else Someone who really didn't need to be taken care of in the first place And eventually we sometimes begin to lose sight that we ourselves are a person at all And what hurts the most is knowing that they never needed your help at all That every time you woke up in the morning and they were the first thing on your mind They were still asleep dreaming of someone else You sleepwalk through your life and the only thing k

The Rain by AokiLapis01, literature

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The Foolish Works of the Human Brain by AokiLapis01, literature

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The Foolish Works of the Human Brain

The heart longs for its inevitable doom and the brain prays for a soul to show a new part of itself While the heart sits and waits The brain demands for answers And the foolish ways of the human heart has always confused the brain And the endless worry from the human brain always changes the heart The brain never came to realize its mistake For the brain loved the heart But the brain was what caused love And love was what made the heart live And with all the brains barriers and all of its distance Is it possible that her brain was the reason why her heart had stopped? The brain being such a treasure and a source of intelligence How

All Has Been Said by AokiLapis01, literature

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All Has Been Said

It feels like all but my tongue has fallen apart Nothing left unspoken But still it feels like nothing's been said And the issues tear us down We bend and we mold And I want you to know that Our love can grow old It can't conquer fear or protect us from hurt It can't tame the sea that's plagued with storm It's fragile like a rose crafted from glass Beautiful intricate and meant to last But it's not perfect with chips and cracks But nothing that breaks can't be made back

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Death is Bliss by AokiLapis01, literature

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A Strangers Wisdom by AokiLapis01, literature

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Prologue for my still untitled story by AokiLapis01, literature

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Prologue for my still untitled story

The events that happened to create this mess are a bit of a blur. I guess you could say that my real story began around five years ago, when my mother passed away. I remember finding out and suddenly everything around me became less important, my mind became a blank canvas and I gave up on all the things I once knew. There’s the first part, I lost my faith at the age of eleven over my mother being taken away by the thief in the night we call death. I guess we all had our way of dealing with the death of my mother, my distant family became more distant, and my father turned to substance. His mental state deteriorat

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Oct 6
United States
Deviant for 11 years
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I love plants and animals. I have a love for all of the nature around me and my hope is to one day study it. I have a multiple of things I'm going to be posting on here, mostly photography and poetry, which is both good and bad. Other things I enjoy include:
Anime, Music (any type metal, pop, rap, country, indie, alternative, etc.), Manga, Reading, Basketball, and Bitch ranting.
Well I hope you enjoy my page. :D

Tumblr: awhiteviolet.tumblr.com
Skype: givemethemotherfuckingcake (always up for a chat)
Facebook: ask and you may receive
Steam: Detectivesloth (I really only play dota 2)

Anime I've watched: (not all just my favorites )
Naruto
One piece
Sword art online
Kyoukai no Kanata
Sukitte I Na Yo
My little Monster
Nagi no Asukura
Kamisama Hajimemashita
Mekakucity Actors
Kamigami No Asobi
One Week Friends
The World God Only Knows
Skip Beat
Toradora
Anohana
Another

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AokiLapis01

Oct 11, 2015

Help

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Have any of you guys ever just royally fucked up? Like do you ever do something that just ruins one of the most important things in your life. I have a friend whom I love very much, and I fear I may lose him, I honestly don't know what to do. I did something that I know will hurt him, but on the other hand what i did wasn't wrong, it's just all really complicated. Can one of you send a note to me, maybe try to tell me what you do when you are feeling guilty about something? I honestly need all the help I can get right now. I love you guys!

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AokiLapis01

Feb 9, 2015

Laptop

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I got myself a new laptop so you will be seeing waaayy more of me. I have been writing like crazy and My brain is fried due to too much creativity is that possible? xD Its really been helping wiht my anxiety too when I write its just such a huge release of everything I don't know I'm just glad to be back

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AokiLapis01

Dec 28, 2014

To be Honest...

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 The things I write really make me sound like quite a depressing tot but I am actually really happy I use my writing as an outlet thats why its all kinda sad but I also write to let you know how I become happy so you can be happy too and we can skip through a field of flowers together and sing songs about destroying mankind So yeah call me if your down just saying fields of flowers of only like 77777777777777.2 miles away from the shitty town I live in But yeah Im happy and you guys should be happy too and If you ever want to talk you can note me on here or just skype me which should be in my description BTW I WAS TOO LAZY TO USE PUNCTU